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haiz. juz hate it when thing get to stir up due to my blog.. wat's wrong wif tat? cant i write wat i wan? wat the hell... haiz.. coz if she really mean wat she say she wont cum n look at my blog n start to kick up a fuss..

i hv try to gif in n try to get abit better... but y muz cum in n stir up my life again.. i juz dun understand... truly dun... 2day life juz sux..

b4 go wk, his mum came to tok to me.. abt alot of thing... tellin me she juz dun like tat ger no matter hw hard i hv try askin her to try etc.. she juz tel me y i muz help tat ger.. i said it's nt the sake 4 tat ger but the sake 4 him.. she ask y muz i keep thinkin 4 him when he nv tink 4 me.. i said it's diff.. coz i know he's trapped inside btw family n the ger.. his mum dun like the ger n dun allow him to bring hm etc.. his sis stop tokin to him due to me n said she wont tok to tat ger also etc.. i too feel the pressure.. plus one more thing coz i noe his mum is feelin lonely when she seldom c him at hm anymore n mk her feel she'd losin a son soon.. i dun wan his mum to feel so neither wan him to mk her feel so.. so i ask her to accept tat ger which will be better.. but she say no.. totally no.. she wont wanna c tat ger at all etc.. i juz keep quiet.. then she said u fought so hard 4 him to mk me get the car 4 him n nw lei? he's using tat car to drive other ger etc.. n so wat if u tink she can help him wif all the car thing.. i dun need her help ok, she is a nobody to me lo.. i wont tk her as my son gf at all de.. she tink wat nw, ppl gt car to drive her ard den very hao lian is it.. wat is this.. i keep quiet as i nv wanna say tat the whole car is full of her thing as it'l onli mk the mum more angry.. tat ger shld noe she is nt rite to get into u 2 then y she wanna do so.. wat is this kinda ger lei? n coz my son easily listen to gerz so she can control him is it? i said i dunno... diff ppl diff view ba.. juz dun tk it to heart lo.. mum juz continue sayin tat she feel like scoldin tat ger n ask tat ger to get out of her son life etc, i stopped her coz i dun wish her to hv a bad relation wif him due to me.. thing like gettin worse n worse.. totally.. hw to save it... i really dunno... then the mum add in.. i nv felt so much 4 any of his gf b4 beside u.. coz i alrdy treat u like my own child le.. i nearly cried when she said tat.. this the 2nd time she told me this.. she said she cried when she know abt our matter n when i decided to move out.. i feel so guilty really... i dunno y but it juz came by me.. i wanna break away frm his family but i cant.. coz his sis onli confront to me when she's in trouble o doubt, his mum is always needin someone to help her wif her family matter as in managin n tkin care plus her health nt tat gd too n his dad wld ask me help in some errand o language help.. it's the bond tat i se bu de.. n it's the luv i had 4 him tat i se bu de.. so tel me.. hw to leave? hw to be heartless? i really dunno.. call me weakling 4 nt able to move on, call me slut 4 clinging onto him, call me anything tat u all wan.. coz u all wont understand wat im goin thru.. coz U R NT ME!!!

wat is this.. wat is goin on.. who's rite... who's wrong... i dunno... i dun wan anymore trouble.. i juz wanna see the light... i juz wanna had my luv life smooth n sound... i wan no trouble....