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2day nv went 2 sch coz i gt nose bleed in the morning totaly sianz half.. i cant get wat o y i wld nose bleed.. but i feel really weak the whole morning.. then he called.. askin hw me etc.. coz early morning tat idiot mgs me again.. keep tellin me e same thing.. so sick of it.. but i dun bother much ba.. all the while the whole day the mgs i gt frm him was tellin me shifting matter.. coz gonna hv spot check soon.. i was like so rush.. i dun even noe wat to do.. can onli shift the thing to the other rm i guess... haiz.. it juz sux... dunno y tat diot wanna go tel her abt it n ask her to do so.. tat fellow is out to get us i guess.. i juz hate it.. i dunno hw the family will react so i keep quiet frm tellin them.. im worried.. super worried.. as tat day his sis gonna b hm early.. but i'l try to hold her bk if possible.. o else surely gonna hv a fight as the whole family dun welcome her at all.. haiz...

went to wk shortly but it turn out 2 b bad too.. coz after awhile i gt mgs frm him askin if i gt told anyone abt him askin me shifting etc.. juz bcoz tat idiot mgs her to hv a sudden check on me.. wat the hell.. wat's on tat idiot mind.. everything tat idiot did will juz mk ppl tink is me.. which i hate alot coz i nv do it.. i told frenz abt it.. they ask me to tink la.. if ppl wan 2 prove thing surely need to catch red handed one lo.. who will wanna tel the person hey i comin to check on u le n let tat person hv chance to go inform the other person to pack up all the evidence b4 they cum.. i tink thru aso rite lo.. so i told him abt it.. he juz keep quiet.. haiz.. as long as i know it's nt me then ok le... me is too tired to bother.. then when after wk i go eat thing happened again... he called me a few time kinda urgent like tat.. askin me blog thing coz she was told by the idiot to go see.. i was like har? wat's wif my blog again!! tat idiot is still seein my blog? but he told me dun delete as he scared tat she might be testing him to change thing.. inside me i was like wat the hell.. then how.. can i continue to blog? i really dunno.. it juz sux... tis time i gonna blog til fri matter over then i continue.. see hw spot check goes le.. irritating...!

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early morning i wasnt feelin well.. it juz sux.. plus tat idiot mgs me again.. tellin me dun be dumb etc.. wonder wat the hell tat fellow wan... wat he o she gain by doin it.. really dun understand.. ytday din mgs him much except thanz him 4 the morning call.. then i went off to sch.. halfway tat's when i gt the idiot mgs.. n it really affected me somehw.. i cant get it out of my mind.. it mk me sian to mgs him etc.. i juz went on n slp my way out of the time in sch.. woke up by a call frm his insurance agent.. i was kinda surprised y he called.. then i noe tat he call him but he's outfield so in turn he ask the agent to contact me.. n he actually own the insurance 2 month of payment which inturn lap the insurance.. so hv to pay the amt thru e agent if nt he will nt be insuranced.. poor him.. so i decided to help him since i noe wat to do etc... dun ask y nt the gf do it.. mayb she is wif him nt long so alot of thing stil dunno ba.. anyway dun say le.. i went on to settle it 4 him be sch end n went to meet april shop shop.. bought a few item n even took neoprint.. so fun... lolz.. but poor april still hv to go bk do stock tk.. lolz.. after which i went bk to counter to meet his sis to go bk 2gether lo.. the whole time frm morning til late nite abt 10plus he nv call.. so i thought mayb he dun care o too busy o too busy contact her le.. so i juz let it be... until 11plsu he suddenly call.. i was shocked but at least i noe he is doin well.. but we din tok much as me is still partly affected by tat idiot mgs... he keep tellin me dun be affected etc... juz sianz lo...

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today got to sch late but was totaly no mood.. ytdy slp really late coz was waitin 4 call.. he too aso nv slp much i guess.. if din hv the morning call i think i wont hv woke up on time. haiz.. sch was boring coz i can onli stay in tat bloody small room.. totaly doin nthing.. haiz... but at least my day start off well.. gt mgs abit b4 it got really busy so i din went on to disturb.. coz i tink it's gonna be a tiring day.. but it mk me smile when i noe he will miss me.. sound silly but i juz feel so.. slack the whole day n mgs annette too.. poor her was so busy wif her wk.. so i went on to slp the whole day while fara n co play com etc.. i juz cant stop feelin tired.. then suddenly it rain heavily.. dunno y.. gt the urge to mgs him so juz gave a casual mgs.. inside me i was tinkin mayb he is too busy to reply.. but i was surprised when he did.. luckily there nv rain if nt he sure will fall sick one.. but i nv went on to disturb him.. i juz ended the mgs fast so in order if he cld hv sum rest.. times passes by slowly as i hv nv been so slack b4.. onli slp n slp.. even fara n co cant stand me.. keep askin me to wake up n tok etc.. but me is too tired la..

sch ended on time.. lolz.. but it's rainin damn heavy.. took my own sweet time to wk place.. lolz.. was doin nthing bt day dream etc.. when suddenly i gt a mgs frm him.. all of a sudden.. ask me to eat sumthing n tk gd care etc.. i was abit blur coz i tink he mgs wrong person.. but he say nv.. was kinda happy but nv really wanna tk tat feelin deep in.. juz a casual reply n i ended it again.. dun dare to say much coz i dunno wat i wld be thinkin again.. after wk his sis came to find me n went to hv dinner wif leon n his campmate.. damn funny bunch of ppl.. but at least they mk me laugh... lolz... he gave me a call b4 i reach the dinner place... askin me hw my day etc.. was a short one coz he goin to slp soon le.. but sumthing juz mk me feel uneasy when he say the car is wif her.. i din say much n juz put dwn the phone.. his sis heard it n say y muz let her drive when the car dun even belong to her plus it's u the one who fight 4 tat car etc.. i juz keep quiet n told her dun tel mum if nt surely gonna get thing worse.. but i noe i cant do anything coz it doesnt mk me hv any rite to do so.. after the dinner we went hm n on the way his sis tok to me abt moving bk thing etc.. i noe til nw i still like confused.. coz i nv did wat i shld.. moving o nt? ah... it juz sux... gonne go slp le.. the same old rm we used to be.. it juz mk me cry...

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today was kinda mess up.. i dunno hw to say.. early mornin when i woke up, he's there beside me.. like nthing happened like tat.. but inside me i keep thinkin abt the fri tat he call n scolded me.. n the whole of fri nite he nv came bk.. dunno where he actually went.. sat we go mgs n it get better.. but i tink i shld get a distance n nv bother much.. but at nite was diff again.. suppose to go frenz hse but in the end nv.. went bk to his hse n started to worried will he cum bk coz i dunno hw to face him.. but he did.. was kinda weird.. but i din bother n went to slp.. force myself to slp n indeed i slp thru til this morning..

but morning was nt a gd start coz he once again tink i use his hp to mgs her which i nv coz i was slpin all the time hw to mgs... but he nv bother to listen.. once again i was hurt.. coz i nv wanna mk him dun trust me.. but somehw i did it.. then to mk thing worse tat freak mgs her again abt alot of weird thing.. n of coz once again i was suspected.. he ordered me to pass him my hp n check but i dun wish to.. nt tat me is afraid but another frenz of mine is mgsin me stuff.. but in the end i still gif him.. coz i hate to be suspect n pt finger at.. then onli he believe.. i juz hate it.. to suspect me then say sorry ltr... in the past aso like tat.. in the end onli when thing prove on its own then he will shut up n say sorry.. wat is this i dunno... juz confused.. on my way to wk we mgs abit tellin abt wat is goin etc.. n i get abit better... coz i dun wish to quarrel.. tml he goin outfield soon le.. i shld b nice to him instead coz it wld b hard on him if we stay tat way.. after wk went to get him sum snack bar tat i always buy him when he go 4 long outfield.. but his fav onli left one box.. so bought other favour too.. gt bk hm, we had dinner b4 he set off to meet her up.. day ended like tat.. inside me i was feelin otherwise.. nt relieved instead me is worry tat tat freak will stir up prob n mk me suffer again as other will tink me is the one who doin all tat thing n me is tat freak etc.. i juz hate it.. tired...

totaly sux

was playin com nw wif frenz n their gf.. juz simply sian ba.. i dunno wat to say wat to do.. juz nw was like a idiot to walk ard frm cine to ck tang to orchard mrt station juz to help one to pay off fine.. i cant bear to see charge being imposed on him.. was able to find in time.. but dunno the one wil find out o nt.. but this early noon was like shit.. totaly.. lots of thing happened lots of hurting words out frm both mouth.. but wat is wrong wif us.. i dunno.. juz when i hv went thru all the trouble to prevent him frm charges.. wat i saw on frenzter juz simply sux... went to look at his profile.. he has deleted my testi.. wahoa.. wat a great stab into my heart n leave me bleedin.. i tink she did too much realy too much.. gt the urge to mgs n jzu pour everything out.. but i juz keep to myself.. n tat one can actually do so.. dunno hw to face each other ltr.. juz dunno.. gotta tink thru le ba... really felt like a idiot after doin so many.. dunno y.. juz sux ba... wat i shld do.. i dunno.. but guess it very clear.. coz there's a b*** btw.. so tell me wat i can do.. tel me dun go oversea etc.. to me nw is all nthing.. juz let it be.. let it be...