parting..

hasnt blog since a week o so?? i guess so.. recently.. so many thing happened ard.. n it juz goes in round n round n ended up wif sadness..



last fri gt a few gd news.. tat's my beloved double c clan's member, missy cheapo soh aka gao lak aka hao lei lei and missy pam the man aka hao lu lu is promoted to in charge~~!! so happy 4 them.. coz they really wk damn hard la 4 the company.. but im sad la.. coz one go scotts one go wisma which mean no one is there to tok cock sing song wif me le.. except miss hao baba.. haiz.. im gonna miss them so so so much...



anyway.. met up wif wendy at citylink had dinner.. n we went walk walk... i noe her feelin not tat well was hopin she get better.. we ended up at indo 4 a drink.. but after a call she was so low tat she is drunk.. saw her like tat seem to be like lookin at myself when ken leave me last yr.. cryin infront of sheng's campmate after a few drink n shockin the other that a ger seem so strong cld cry so easily over a man etc.. wendy seem to b like the same old me.. but she is lucky.. coz the man she luv did luv her as much too... i dunno ken did o nt... o mayb he did but nt that deep at all i guess.. i dunno hw to really console her coz im stil nt up to tat yet.. but i noe i cld lend her a shoulder to cry on.. coz jenny n april did tat when i needed one the most include my buddy.. seein the strong strong wendy so low, it kinda hurts me.. coz i noe it's very pain as i went thru b4 n juz like as much as she wan me to b happy n nt being hurt, the same thought applies to me too.. hope thing wil get better 4 her after all the toks etc.. i wish she cld see the sunshine after the rain.. silly ger... i will b there 4 u.. dun worry...



sat.. whole day i cant get wendy.. so on off i sent her mgs etc.. but finally noe she is sortin out her thoughts etc, i juz left her alone.. had dinner wif dawn yen xiu n double c clan at cine.. luv the moment coz it's been so long tat i get to chill n gather wif frenz after the break up.. after which i went over to powerhouse to find jenny etc.. n there is my beloved mama cryin.. she's low too.. haiz.. cant do much but juz let her go hv fun..



n finally sun... after steamboat n pubbin, im bk here at blog.. lolz.. i juz feel y my frenz is all facin the low low mood... really hate it... i wan them to b happy.. carry on their life happily.. but it seem so hard.. stop torturin my frenz..

wat a dayz..

14/3 juz passed.. but alrdy i face pain inside me once again.. the pain to see them walk pass u hand in hand happily n there's nthing u can do.. juz watch n feel the pain.. juz when i thought i cld juz tk the 1st step to go out of my normal clubbin rountine.. to juz switch to chillin at cine.. thing juz collapse.. they juz walk pass me when i was happily tokin to frenz.. immediately im fall bk to sq one.. once again.. i lost to myself.. say im coward say im weak o wat.. i juz dun care coz im the one who's goin thru tis pain.. n onli me noe hw it feel..

totally lost of words.. can onli went bk hm wif a heavy bag of pain.. nearly cry out... but i decided nt to.. frenz ard n i dun wanna worry them.. once i gt hm... im blank.. mgs flows in frm frenz.. thanz 4 the concern... i noe onli i can help myself... but u all mk my day diff too..

times n times again.. i wonder will i get over n move on.. but i guess im nt.. i nv wanna c them coz im afraid.. afraid of wat.. i tink i wasnt sure.. mayb scared to c them happily 2gether etc i gues.. too much guessin.. plus im tired... i wish to wash him out of my mind.. but it nv..

sick sick sick.. wat i gotta do......................

been awhile.. 14/3....

it has been awhile since i came online to blog... dunno y i stop but guess i noe y i gonna start soon.. coz wendy sim somehw remind me tat i gt a blog to maintain i guess.. lolz..

anyway... today is a long long day.. a day tat happened in every yr tat mk my emotion run wild.. 4 the past few yr o so it's a day i look 4ward to.. but 2day at tis pt of time i dun.. hate the blue blue feelin.. hate to tink of him again... every 14th is a miserable day... but i cant put on the bluey face.. gotta force myself to smile.. to smile at my foolishness n move on... went to sch 4 exam but the bus journey mk me sink into deep thought.. cant concentrate on wat me is readin cant tink of anything.. in a blink of eye the exam is finish.. dunno where to go.. abit lost.. but decided to go find jenny.. luckily she is there 2 acc me eat tok to me.. once again.. blue blue has gone.. but not long ago.. it juz came bk to say hi to me again le.. sianz...

so here m i.. cant slp n bloggin all my way.. haiz.. haiz..

updatz..

ok wendy sim.. i hv updates my blog.. updates updates.. lolz..