wat a dayz..

14/3 juz passed.. but alrdy i face pain inside me once again.. the pain to see them walk pass u hand in hand happily n there's nthing u can do.. juz watch n feel the pain.. juz when i thought i cld juz tk the 1st step to go out of my normal clubbin rountine.. to juz switch to chillin at cine.. thing juz collapse.. they juz walk pass me when i was happily tokin to frenz.. immediately im fall bk to sq one.. once again.. i lost to myself.. say im coward say im weak o wat.. i juz dun care coz im the one who's goin thru tis pain.. n onli me noe hw it feel..

totally lost of words.. can onli went bk hm wif a heavy bag of pain.. nearly cry out... but i decided nt to.. frenz ard n i dun wanna worry them.. once i gt hm... im blank.. mgs flows in frm frenz.. thanz 4 the concern... i noe onli i can help myself... but u all mk my day diff too..

times n times again.. i wonder will i get over n move on.. but i guess im nt.. i nv wanna c them coz im afraid.. afraid of wat.. i tink i wasnt sure.. mayb scared to c them happily 2gether etc i gues.. too much guessin.. plus im tired... i wish to wash him out of my mind.. but it nv..

sick sick sick.. wat i gotta do......................