haiz...

sometime i dun wish thing to get worse but it did.. y thing seem ok 4 the past few dayz then nw it get like tat.. juz bcoz i nv follow the rule? o it's my own doin.. but i nv wanna go to the extend to create trouble.. i juz wan a peaceful life.. i hate it.. juz hate it..

dayz..

the past few days was ok.. gettin abit better here n there.. nt bcoz i hv move on etc coz i noe i havent.. but juz some stuff tat brighten up my dayz.. at least nw nt so harsh le.. i hope to b better but i tink it tk times.. dun wanna rush it coz scared i'll fall.. went to look at my source of happiness, still the same.. has been doin silly thing recently.. silly as in the gd way nt being hurtin to myelf etc.. everyday b4 i go out, i wld peek into the fridge n look at the cakes.. then i will feel happy le.. even though the cake has been there 4 dayz even though it's juz a cake.. but it's something to me.. ppl might nt understand.. but i do.. onli hope thing get better.. tat's all.. gonna go rest..

after so long..

so long so long le.. i dunno wat im doin recently.. m i movin on? o m i nt? i dunno.. guess im stuck.. he seem so shag when he came bk.. i dunno y i juz feel so.. he seem so tired so many prob like tat.. haiz.. wat to do.. wat i can do 4 him i dunno... is e ger tkin gd care of him i dunno.. i juz feel very tired everyday juz wanna slp n slp.. tat's all.. tossin ard in his bed i cant get to slp.. went hm? i dunno.. confused... his dog juz went thru an op.. gonna bring him go see vet again tml.. poor him... hopefully his eyes get better ba... goin to slp..