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today was kinda mess up.. i dunno hw to say.. early mornin when i woke up, he's there beside me.. like nthing happened like tat.. but inside me i keep thinkin abt the fri tat he call n scolded me.. n the whole of fri nite he nv came bk.. dunno where he actually went.. sat we go mgs n it get better.. but i tink i shld get a distance n nv bother much.. but at nite was diff again.. suppose to go frenz hse but in the end nv.. went bk to his hse n started to worried will he cum bk coz i dunno hw to face him.. but he did.. was kinda weird.. but i din bother n went to slp.. force myself to slp n indeed i slp thru til this morning..

but morning was nt a gd start coz he once again tink i use his hp to mgs her which i nv coz i was slpin all the time hw to mgs... but he nv bother to listen.. once again i was hurt.. coz i nv wanna mk him dun trust me.. but somehw i did it.. then to mk thing worse tat freak mgs her again abt alot of weird thing.. n of coz once again i was suspected.. he ordered me to pass him my hp n check but i dun wish to.. nt tat me is afraid but another frenz of mine is mgsin me stuff.. but in the end i still gif him.. coz i hate to be suspect n pt finger at.. then onli he believe.. i juz hate it.. to suspect me then say sorry ltr... in the past aso like tat.. in the end onli when thing prove on its own then he will shut up n say sorry.. wat is this i dunno... juz confused.. on my way to wk we mgs abit tellin abt wat is goin etc.. n i get abit better... coz i dun wish to quarrel.. tml he goin outfield soon le.. i shld b nice to him instead coz it wld b hard on him if we stay tat way.. after wk went to get him sum snack bar tat i always buy him when he go 4 long outfield.. but his fav onli left one box.. so bought other favour too.. gt bk hm, we had dinner b4 he set off to meet her up.. day ended like tat.. inside me i was feelin otherwise.. nt relieved instead me is worry tat tat freak will stir up prob n mk me suffer again as other will tink me is the one who doin all tat thing n me is tat freak etc.. i juz hate it.. tired...